That blep of the black cat is amazing

Hoping you don’t take the downvotes to heart. Excuse my french, but you’re a bit of a weirdo and I’m sure you know this. I’m a weirdo in different ways so I get it lol!!

Anyway, I’m really happy for you that you managed to find a partner so well suited for you. A compatibility scenario like yours in an already niche group of people sounds more like finding a needle in a haystack to me. While I get that technically there is probably some individual on the planet that is compatible with me due to my niche sexual/romantic needs, it is statistically unlikely and incredibly difficult to ever hope to find someone like that.

I am fully aware. But notice I said that the issue for me has been lifelong. During and after pubertal age, I never developed in that manner. I have been taking an SSRI for only the past few months. That leaves 15+ years prior to taking an SSRI or any sort of medications whatsoever where I had no libido. In my case, it was not caused by any medication. It was lifelong.

I’m a decade younger, but I’m sure I’ll still be a virgin at 40 and beyond.

I have had a lifelong lack of libido (so it has not been caused by any sort of medications or anything). I also have the inability to feel sexual pleasure. I have tried all different kinds of ways of masturbating and none of them have felt like anything. May as well just be touching my forearm. Puberty was confusing as fuck as I couldn’t relate to any of my peers in this way. So I’ve always felt pretty broken.

I don’t really like other people touching me, especially strangers. I have tried kissing a couple of times before and I didn’t understand how I was supposed to do it like physically…how you’re supposed to move your mouth/facial muscles or whatever. It just tasted like spit and was wet and wasn’t pleasant.

Mostly I’m fine with it, but sometimes I get a bit sad that I’ll never be able to have a deep lifelong, human connection with someone, raise kids, etc.

I get that I can try to find connections within the asexual community, but it’s incredibly small and hard to find someone in my same age in my same geographical area.

Oh also I have intense social anxiety which doesn’t help.

Here’s the thing, whether or not it’s a “lifestyle” shouldn’t even enter into the equation. Healthcare workers are supposed to treat everyone the same, regardless of what the patient has done or how they live. If you can’t deal with that, don’t go into healthcare.